REDUCE, REUSE, RECYCLE
You ever felt like you always gave a fuck about everybody around you but you never felt that emotion in return? Usually its you scratch my back I scratch yours but in this dog eat dog world that expression is automatically eliminated. I try my best to be the friend that I would want someone to be to me. I may joke around and let my sarcasm get the best of me ,but its never meant to purposely harm anyone. I’m always thinking of others, but sometimes I feel like if anyone ever wonders what I’m doing or how I’m feeling. I try to motivate everybody and be chivalrous if I might say, but who motivates me when I need it. I get down &out too but who’s there to cheer me up. Its not about who’s there when you’re happy but who’s there when you’re down. I don’t do anything for anyone expecting some reward in return, its out the kindness of my heart but I just wonder where is someone to console me in my time of need. But come judgment day I can only be accountable for what I’ve done for others not for what I’ve done for somebody else..I’ll continue to do for others and in the process ask God to help me to refrain from thinking like this and to start to think more about myself in an unselfish non-conceited type of way. Because if no one else loves me or cares about my well being GOD does.
okay so i dont really know where to start with this but this is a picture of my boyfriend, josh (in plaid holding the baby), his brother, jeff (on the left in the wheelchair), and jeff’s baby girl jayde. Before i really get into the story i want you to know a little about josh and his brother and jayde. jeff, his brother is paralyzed. him and josh were playing basketball in a bad place in town and there was a drive by shooting and a stray bullet hit jeff’s spine which left him in critical condition, paralyzed from the neck down. before this incident jeff had his baby girl, jayde. soon after jayde was born her mom, jeff’s girlfriend left leaving jeff to be a single dad. so now jeff is a paralyzed single dad but josh told me that jeff never once said “why me?” or “i hate my life”, all jeff said was “shit happens.” and oh believe me shit does happen.. jeff is such a strong guy and i admire him so much. josh, my love, is the most amazing guy ever, seriously. he’s always protecting jeff no matter what. josh even goes to jeffs house early in the morning to help him get dressed and play with his neice jayde. josh and jayde have a great relationship. josh teaches her to read (she’s 2 and 7 months and 6 days, dont ask how i know that lol) he takes her out to the movies and he’s always so caring and loving towards her. Josh and I are in a long distance relationship. I live in New York while he lives in Florida. We pretty much are madly in love with each other and he was going to visit me this september for my birthday. Yesterday, Monday August 13th, 2012 josh was shot 7 times coming out of a gas station. He is in critical condition and is on life support. He was shot 7 times. two times in one leg, once in his left shoulder, 2 times in his right lower chest, one time in the stomach, and one time in the neck. He’s in a drug induced coma right now. I was waiting for his text all day today and I knew something was wrong. He recently was sick with pneumonia and the stomach virus and still has pneumonia. His mom texted me from his phone and told me what happened at 1:00 in the morning. My heart sank to my stomach and I was shaking from total shock. The love of my life is now under life support. I cried on the phone with my best friend. I just wanted to see Josh, I wanted to fly down there and just hold him. (We never saw each other in person yet) But his mom is arranging a flight for me to go see him soon. I am totally and inevitably in love with him. Everything. He’s everything i could ever ask for and more. He makes me feel like i’m the best person in the world and his love for me is just beyond imaginable. His voice is so soothing and I wish that every person in the world could feel this type of love I feel when I talk to him. But the love of my life is slowly slipping away from me. And I need him. I don’t know what i would do without him. He’s honestly the best thing that has happened to me and I told myself to never get attached to someone again but with him, its different. he’s different. he’s everything. he’s a part of me. and i cant let him go. Thank you for reading this and all i ask for is just a simple reblog or like to show that josh is in your prayers. please keep him in your prayers. thank you so much.
It’s not much, but I felt I needed to do something.
For the victims in Colorado.